Starting to Dig #FrancisDolarhyde… Scar Included

Francis2aYeah, so… having just watched Ep. 3.10, I think my physical attraction to this character is #Becoming. Yes, he still gives off creepy vibes at times, and without giving away too many spoilers, this did happen early on in the episode as they explored the dynamic developing between Francis and Hannibal. Let me just say… this episode was my favorite to date. Francis figured heavily so I felt as if a satisfactory “RA Quota” was fulfilled, and even the scenes without Francis were primarily with Bedelia, who I find very compelling as a character, not to mention I’m a long-time fan of Gillian Anderson. I’ll probably review this episode more later after it’s aired in the U.S., but for now, I’ll leave it at this: Fabulous!

Francis3aWhat I wanted to talk about was this somewhat strange phenomenon… that suddenly I’m starting to dig the scar. From the moment I first saw it, I thought it didn’t detract from the uniquely sharp handsomeness that is Richard Armitage’s face, but that was where I left it. For some reason during Ep. 3.10 I started actually finding the scar attractive in itself, and naturally I find that a bit curious.

 

Then I remembered something interesting, and perhaps only thought of it because of a song I happened to hear this morning. I was driving to work and happened to finish my audiobook, and I’d forgotten to download a new audiobook before leaving the house. Rather than try to mess with that while driving, I decided to turn on the radio, which is something I never do if there’s an audiobook to listen to instead. “The One I Love” by R.E.M. came on, and I felt this soft sense of nostalgia come over me, which momentarily puzzled me before I remembered that a boy once dedicated that song to me and played it on the radio the last night I saw him. His name was Chad, and he was the night shift DJ at a local radio station in the small Oklahoma town where my parents lived.

I’ve always had a bit of a soft spot for bad boys. Chad was not exactly someone my parents would have approved of me seeing. He was a high school drop out, for one thing, so I didn’t even know him from school. He happened to be best friends with another guy I did know from school, and both of these boys were in a completely different socioeconomic class than I was. Bobby lived in a tiny, run-down camper with parents who were drug and alcohol addicted, and due to having nowhere to sleep except in a chair or on the floor, he often stayed over at his friend Chad’s house, which was not a lot bigger than the camper, and you’d have to step over piles of clothes and junk debris and past an unconscious parent to navigate your way to Chad’s room, which he kept neat as a pin, a huge contrast to the squalor of the rest of the home. I knew Bobby from art class, and we’d occasionally hang out together, sharing the same taste in alternative music, and so the summer before I went off to my freshman year of college, I met Chad through my friendship with Bobby. I only went to his house a couple of times, usually to look at Chad’s artwork. He was (and still is) an amazing graphic artist, and now makes a living at it, illustrating comic books. Anyway, the summer after graduation, with about a week to go before I left town for college, Chad and I sort of hooked up and had a few intense days of feeling in love with that strange piquancy that comes when a separation is imminent and you know it’s not likely to work out for a thousand other reasons, but still feel that attraction humming and buzzing.

REMThe thing is, Chad also had a scar on his upper lip, a scar characteristic of a cleft palate repair. I don’t know for certain whether that was the case, because there was no speech issue whatsoever, and I never asked him about it. Having moved to the Oklahoma area during my high school years, I didn’t know the history in a way that normally I would have in such a small town, and I never felt it was polite to ask Chad or Bobby about the scar. Maybe if we’d had more than one week together, that would have been shared, but we didn’t. The night before I left for college, I did drive into town to say goodbye. He was at work at his DJ job, and we spent a couple of hours hanging out, then I left with a heavy heart, knowing I’d miss this boy, though no promises of staying in touch were made. On my drive home, I listened to his radio station, and I’ll never forget his husky voice saying, “Jen, this one’s for you.” And as the first lines of the song, “This one goes out to the one I love” came over the airwaves, my eyes welled up with tears.

Sigh. Of course, I did go off to college, and while I was there I met a new boy, and was in a steady relationship for 4 years, so even when I did come home, I didn’t seek Chad out again. Years later, now and then l do think back on those few days with the boy from “the other side of the tracks”, and it makes me happy to know he has a very pretty fiancé and a successful job as an artist now. He was a pretty damn good kisser, and I never found his scar to be unattractive. It was just a part of him, something a little dark and melancholic and broody.

Francis1aMaybe that’s why I now find myself wishing I could trace that scar on Francis Dolarhyde’s face. And staring at it with a new focus and level of attraction that confuses me.

I don’t know if it’s because it reminds me of a boy I used to know, or if I just happen to have some weird quirk.

Does anyone else find that scar appealing? Or am I just a little odd? =)

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20 comments

  1. Perry · August 7, 2015

    I can’t say that Im attracted by the scar, but I’m not that conscious of it anymore. I noticed in this episode that the scar runs along the ridge of his philtrum ( we called it a soup strainer, in camp), and so, sometimes it blends in with it. Also in this episode as with scenes in the others, I think the show runners just can’t make him unattractive – want to make show his handsomeness for some scenes. There is so much to say about this episode. I still need to see it again, and maybe again. ( four times already) before I write anything more than I have. I look forward to reading you post, too. Oh P.S. -It’s Richard Armitage, so the physical attraction is usually there for me, but I agree, it’s growing – no pun intended, here either. They’re making him hotter with clothes and without.

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    • jholland · August 7, 2015

      No kidding. I was just about panting when they showed Reba stroke his thigh. He’s just looking hotter and hotter. I can’t not notice the scar… it’s like I hone in on it now, but it looks bizarrely handsome to me today. I don’t think I have a scar fetish, though some scars are dashing. Ross Poldark I’m looking at you… =)

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      • Perry · August 7, 2015

        and Harry Potter. I agree. It was pretty hot. They’ve changed his wardrobe a bit, not as military or Members Only. Also, there’s no attempt here to make him look smaller or fit the screen as in other works – here- it seems intentional to make him look even bigger, ha ha, dwarfing those around him.

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  2. Helen · August 8, 2015

    Undecided about the scar (not able to see Hannibal yet in the UK) but I love your story about Chad. Aww. Sounds like a really sweet guy and it’s good he’s doing well. 🙂

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    • jholland · August 8, 2015

      I know, and from what I can tell on social media, both Chad and Bobby are doing reasonably well. Given the kind of upbringing they had, it’s a huge relief. Poverty is one thing, but apathetic and substance-impaired parents were what just astonished me at the time… not unlike some of the stuff in Urban… so props to the guys for breaking out of that cycle. =)

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  3. zeesmuse · August 8, 2015

    I DO find the scar oddly alluring. I don’t have a scar fetish, but I’m naturally curious about contrast in feel and wonder if it’s sensitive.

    It’s gutter time.

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    • jholland · August 8, 2015

      Yes! And for their first kiss, it looked to me like she went right for the scarred area. Which is exactly what I’d like to do…. Whew, glad at least one other person sees the allure. =)

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      • zeesmuse · August 8, 2015

        I’ve downloaded it but I’ve not watched it yet. Probably will when I get back from breakfast. Yesterday was a long, physically difficult day (not due to classes. Due to some physical work I had to do that took several hours) and I fell IN the bed after dinner. When I get back from breakfast, I’m going to plug in my headset and enjoy!

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  4. frauvonelmdings · August 8, 2015

    I’m interested in scars. This particular one doesn’t repel me. I fell for the original Poldark long ago 😉

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    • jholland · August 8, 2015

      The original Poldark series is so highly praised… I was thinking of Aidan Turner, but the older series is on my list to be eventually watched…

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      • frauvonelmdings · August 8, 2015

        Aidan Turner is a sweet guy. But when I heard that they’d cast him as Poldark, I went “Wait, what? Nooooooooo.” I’ve seen some trailers, but still no no no. I really can’t watch this. 😉

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        • jholland · August 8, 2015

          Yeah, I had no preconceptions. And I thought the series was beautiful, from the scenery to the music to the eye-candy. And good performances all around. Still, when I am into a story, I like to look at several renditions, if they’re well-reviewed. I’ve seen most of the P&P adaptations, and so on. So I’ll get around to Poldark in due time.

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  5. suzy · August 8, 2015

    I like Poldark with his scar, Aidan Turner is nice boy 🙂 Dolly? I am not distracted by the scar but I am afraid of the whole character…..

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    • jholland · August 9, 2015

      Well, there is that. LOL. But just brushing aside his psychopathic tendencies for a moment… he and his scar are completely working for me. =)

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  6. crystalchandlyre · August 9, 2015

    The scar never bothered me and now I do not even notice it unless he or something in the scene specifically draws attention to it, which is exactly the point Reba tries to make to him. Everything about him and the character is so sexy and alluring (outside of the character’s sickness and being a serial killer) that it is just impossible to make him look physically unattractive. (Sorry Richard, it’s a fail if you were attempting the latter in anyway.)

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    • jholland · August 9, 2015

      Yes… and welcome! I think the only time he looks ugly is when he inserts those nasty teeth. And that has an amazing transformative effect to make him more grotesque. But just the little scar? Not even remotely detracts from his allure, in fact for me, increases it somehow.

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  7. Servetus · August 9, 2015

    Great story. (I also think I missed a lot in school because of not associating with people my parents disapproved of, i.e., mostly people who were not in church with us or academic high achievers.) But that song — wow, I’ve always thought it’s kind of creepy and resentful. Do you think he thought he was a “simple prop” to occupy your time?

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    • jholland · August 9, 2015

      I hope that’s not how he felt, though in light of the fact that I was leaving and we both knew it… damn. Could be, but he was so sweet. I didn’t get the impression of resentment, though there was an air of wistfulness in him. You’re right, though- lyrics are not the most loving… of course all I heard at the time was the main line I mentioned above… the other lyrics I studiously ignored. =)

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      • Servetus · August 9, 2015

        well, only you and he know what it meant. For me that song has the context of being something I had on autorepeat during a breakup that left me angry at the breakerupper.

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